By Dillon Darnell
It caught my eye
walked by - dead set on
forward motion
threw a wrench in my engine
and now I’m in this moment
frozen in time...
now unthawed by my young
thoughts watch as I
open my mind
this picture taken had been
in a place that isn’t safe
on the refrigerator this
magnet had in the pages of many statements
bills, the mortgage payment,
it sort of made it
over shadowed by life’s
hassles which correlates with
a reality heavy enough to
pull you under
hits you in the present and
doesn’t take a number
this picture landed face down
nearly six feet below my gaze
upon the safe ground
of this house, so secure
thank God I’m alive
but paralyzed on what could
be on the opposite side
of this photograph
it could bring grief like an
epitaph or peace that I never had.
A flood of feelings awaits
behind the dam of delay-I
stand in its way
this captured moment wants to
have a word with me
it hit the ground with the
sound of emergency.
I was afraid
this picture could be from
the fourth grade
with that silicone smile
plastered on my face
as a mask to hide the pain
because my parents went away,
hadn’t seen them in a while.
no one knows but me, they
said “cheese”
but all that I could see
was my mother O.D’ed
maybe it’s not that photo
and it’s the one of my son
dressed like a Spider Man
promo
I would crack a grin, but
what happens then
is the pain of how life
passes when you have to bend
and give and take
clock in and out
would strike a chord in my
heart with the harmony of
doubt
that paper work could’ve
waited
my boy is growing faster than
anticipated
maybe the other side
is...simply blank
reminding me of the pictures
that I didn’t take
A flood of feelings awaits
behind the dam of delay-I
stand in its way
this captured moment wants to
have a word with me
it hit the ground with the
sound of emergency.
They say a picture’s worth a
thousand words
it must come close to a
million thoughts
this developed dream of
astounding worth
could show me what I missed
getting what I got
this could be December 3rd,
2005
when I felt alive, became one
with my bride
But no memories left
untainted
because she gave me her
heart, but didn’t know that I could take it
and damage love
Here I am still standing up
I don’t want to see
what this camera once saw
with a lens
more forgiving than a human
eye
wanted to walk away then felt
a touch to my side
“Dad, do you want me to get
that?”
interpreted my silence as a
yes, what a mishap
zoned out with the sounds of
Dad....Dad
Do you want me to throw away
this ad.
An ad?
Consumer driven image of a
T.V. that is bigger
then my entertainment center
Wow.....that’s it!?
So I say thank you for this
time of reflection
redeem my regrets, refine my
direction
Thank You
For this time of reflection
redeem my regrets
refine my direction.
A flood of feelings awaits
behind the dam of delay-I
stand in its way
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